It`s really a thing that burns ,kills & definitely more fatal than death.
I`m talking about something i`ve been through today, something that shocked every cell in my body even the dead ones got back a life, got shocked & continue being dead.
What i`m saying is that when you are a feet close from someone that you consider as a part of your soul, your perfect person & even more precious than your life, yet you feel that there is a barrier stronger than you both, thus your only choices is to stand in killing silence or just walk away (as I did today), which is the thing that breaks every part & compartment of your heart.
Far in time in my childhood, my early grow up, even in the first year in college i`ve never been a believer in love, I only thought of it as a joke & silly thing, but wind flows against the sailor's desire, once in the first times in college accidentally I saw that girl, that eyes, that face from heaven & that smile, I really felt in love with her & then I discovered a lot of things about her made me even believe in her & really said to my self well that's her my other half & my future queen ;-).
It`s all about time , i`m at the edge of a tough situation & most complicated time of my life( no one can envy my situation), when I suppose to concentrate on my dream (i`m a senior of my grade) which i were, until i incorporated the idea of marriage & my fears of loosing the person I loved, because when this may happen(Allah forbid) i`ll never get married again because (when god gives you one heart so you may donate your heat to one person or else you are not a human).
Today I past by my love, I never had the ability to look into her eyes(I already did something wrong before a month) & I thought that she might be mad of me & their might be a tension if I tried to make a move, so I tried to finish my purpose fast enough that I won't disturb her & then left the college to my cousin's argumentation,(by the way I couldn't resist not to look at her, what can I say she was simply & without any pretending the most beutifull, sweet, & attractive pharmacist today).
Finally all what i`ll do is to keep my heart beat for my love H. & try to carry out my summer plans, along with praying to god for making my two humble dreams comes true….Amin,
Yours,
GHAITH
Monday, 21 June 2010
Thursday, 17 June 2010
After exams & Summer`s arrival
Salam for any body reading;
- It has been a month I can describe as a nightmare not a days, we( the mosul pharmacists) took the final examinations of the second course, it wasn`t that hard but it was long & tedious, although it seems that tough challenge but the exams for me was a piece of cake & an opportunity to achieve closeness to my dream.
Each day in that exams I was full armed with information & my pencils was jumping from eager to write on the exam paper, all that & there was something missing it was indescribable feeling just as I lost something (god I miss her).
- The day past yesterday an carriage of fish was carrying a 2 tank rockets did explode on a crowd in the eastern part of mosul (Al-Maidan area), my cousin happened to be there he was severely injured by a flinders in his head & we heard that 15 others were killed, would this be the situation forever?, & when this so-called government would be formed?, so many questions but who to answer?.
- A huge event is been held out there, can you take a guess what?; yes, it's 2010 world cup in S. Africa (hooo Africa !!!), yet we are (Iraq) not there, because dear Qatar eliminated us from the qualifying, so I'm Italian (azzurian) in this world cup as i`m always all my time before the world cup exactly juventusian.
Italy has came out in a draw in the first match against Paraguay, but they would show their best against New Zealand & Slovakia,& reach the finals & win the cup again after four years from their trophy in 2006, even if J. Boffun is absent from his back injury in the opening match.
-I say ; i`ll miss everything about the college, i`ll miss the hall, the laboratories, the friends, studying ,professors , & most of all my happy memories & that feelings I was newly to feel(really I miss her), & that old building that graduated every pharmacist in mosul due to our moving to the new building of pharmacy college of mosul.
-My eagr now after finishing the 2nd year is to finish the next three years super fast, after being a step closer to reach my dream to be a teacher in pharmacy BSc, then continue my road to master degree MSc, & my optimum dream PhD degree.
ان شاء الله بلا سلف على الله
See you next time soon….
Yours
Ghaith
- It has been a month I can describe as a nightmare not a days, we( the mosul pharmacists) took the final examinations of the second course, it wasn`t that hard but it was long & tedious, although it seems that tough challenge but the exams for me was a piece of cake & an opportunity to achieve closeness to my dream.
Each day in that exams I was full armed with information & my pencils was jumping from eager to write on the exam paper, all that & there was something missing it was indescribable feeling just as I lost something (god I miss her).
- The day past yesterday an carriage of fish was carrying a 2 tank rockets did explode on a crowd in the eastern part of mosul (Al-Maidan area), my cousin happened to be there he was severely injured by a flinders in his head & we heard that 15 others were killed, would this be the situation forever?, & when this so-called government would be formed?, so many questions but who to answer?.
- A huge event is been held out there, can you take a guess what?; yes, it's 2010 world cup in S. Africa (hooo Africa !!!), yet we are (Iraq) not there, because dear Qatar eliminated us from the qualifying, so I'm Italian (azzurian) in this world cup as i`m always all my time before the world cup exactly juventusian.
Italy has came out in a draw in the first match against Paraguay, but they would show their best against New Zealand & Slovakia,& reach the finals & win the cup again after four years from their trophy in 2006, even if J. Boffun is absent from his back injury in the opening match.
-I say ; i`ll miss everything about the college, i`ll miss the hall, the laboratories, the friends, studying ,professors , & most of all my happy memories & that feelings I was newly to feel(really I miss her), & that old building that graduated every pharmacist in mosul due to our moving to the new building of pharmacy college of mosul.
-My eagr now after finishing the 2nd year is to finish the next three years super fast, after being a step closer to reach my dream to be a teacher in pharmacy BSc, then continue my road to master degree MSc, & my optimum dream PhD degree.
ان شاء الله بلا سلف على الله
See you next time soon….
Yours
Ghaith
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